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Oshi ga Budokan Ittekuretara Shinu, Volume 11 (推しが武道館いってくれたら死ぬ)

June 19th, 2025

A group of six idols in different colors look at us. In salmon pink, Maina makes a heart with her hands. Reo has moved on. Basement idol group Cham Jam is now a group of six. This is an inescapable reality in Oshi ga Budokan Ittekuretara Shinu,Volume 11 (推しが武道館いってくれたら死ぬ). 

The new front line is Sora and Maki, naturally, and less explicably, Maina. Maina, the least popular and talented of the group. And she really feels it, now, when out in the front. When she makes her debut at the front, even Eripyo is unable to say she is a “good” dancer. Maina struggles, but the rest of Cham Jam is with her and is committed to helping her be front-row worthy.

To celebrate Cham Jam’s new look and their anniversary as a group, they hold a big event, inviting all fans past and present to come. It’s been a few months, and Eripyo and Motoi have not seen or spoken to Kumasa, but they ask him to join them at what they understand would be a painful event, but they really want him to be there for Cham Jam.

As the show goes on, Maina does seem better. Not a leader, but also maybe not just a mascot. And when they see Kumasa, all the groups members do Reo’s signature bear-ear gesture for him, in a moment that was genuinely touching.  Reo sends a message of encouragement. Other idol groups show up to offer their support, and possibly check out the competition

Eripyo and Maina try to converse and fail only about half as much as usual. Maina is gaining confidence in everything, somehow, step by step.

And Cham Jam moves on into it’s next chapter.

Ratings: 

Art – 8
Story – 9
Character – 9 except Motoi, who is still awful
Service – 0
Yuri – Yes, but…

Overall – 9

If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It To The Budokan, I Would Die, Volumes 1-8 are out now in English from Tokyopop and on the Yuricon Store. I will endeavor to catch up on 9-10 shortly. I apologize in advance, Volume 7 is good until the end where it is very bad. But it gets a lot better from there! ^_^; 





Oshi ga Budokan Ittekuretara Shinu, Volume 10, (推しが武道館いってくれたら死ぬ)

May 8th, 2025

A girl with long reddish hair in two ponytails, wearing a a pink dirndl-style dress with petticoats and long black boots. She runs away from us, but looks back over her shoulder at us, sadly.Volume 9 left me weak with relief as Eripyo and Maina actually had a conversation. But as we look at the cover of Oshi ga Budokan Ittekuretara Shinu, Volume 10, (推しが武道館いってくれたら死ぬ), we can see that this volume will be different. All previous volumes portrayed Cham Jam or another idol group. This volume only has Reo. And we know why… Reo is retiring.

This whole volume focuses on the ripples in the water when the well-liked and talented lead of a small-time idol group retires. Reo is not the only one whose life will change. Of course the entire group now will be different with only 6 members – they no longer have a center position! Every member of Cham Jam has to reconcile their personal and professional feelings about Reo and decide if the group is strong enough to continue.

And then there are the fans. Kumasa has been very vocal about how his fandom for Reo changed his life for the better. If she retires, what will he have to look forward to? The volume gets very deep into this because for all three of our resident fans, the group is secondary to the passion they have for their favorite, specifically.

And then…Reo retires. I was kind of surprised, honestly. Right up to the very end, I was just sure something would bring her back. Once again, good opportunities were missed by the management company. Who better to add to the management team than the former lead? But, no. And then they miss the opportunity of centering Maki and Sorane as a lead *pair.* Gosh this management team is a bunch of dipshits. It would have enraged Aya for lulz, as an added benefit. But no one asks me. ^_^; When the management announces who will join the front row all hell breaks loose, not. It’s an insane choice for the business, but it’s brilliant for the story.

I just picked up Volume 11 (spoilers on the cover!) in Japanese and kinda want to see what’s going to happen and also want to bash something heavy into my head because reading this manga is my equivalent of a hair shirt. ^_^;

Ratings:

Art – 8
Story – 9
Character – 9, except Motoi who is still awful. Thank heavens for his sister Rena, who, even in abstensia, is twice the man he is.
Service – 0
Yuri – Idol/fan lives are complicated.

Overall – 9

If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan, I Would Die, Volumes 1-10 are available in English now from Tokyopop and Volume 11 is on the way this month, if you too want to marvel at the ineptitude of Cham Jam’s management in this dark comedy about provincial idols groups.





If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan, I Would Die, Volume 5

April 10th, 2025

7 young women dressed in cute clothes with purple skirts, different blouses and accessories pose on the cover, looking at us, as if doing a photo op.In If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan, I Would Die, Volume 5, the members of Cham Jam make it to Tokyo. And, while they do not get to perform at the Budokan…or even the other, smaller, Budokan…they are filled with a renewed sense of purpose and gain some new fans.

Eripyo is glad the group has new fans, she is no longer Maina’s only fan…but that puts her in awkward place. Yay, Maina is more popular!, but Eri’s not her one and only any more. Of course, yes, she is and Maina has eyes for no one else. Even though they manage to have an almost normal conversation over a handshake, neither Maina nor Eripyo manage to sake anything of importance, leaving everything they want to say hanging. As always.

It has been six years, *six* years, since I read this book in Japanese. And yet, the sense of desperation and obsession clings to me, still. So when I picked up this volume, I sat down to it much as one does to a meal of leftovers that were just alright the first time and won’t be better now. ^_^; Of course, I know what we’re in for and want to warn you that the next few volumes are just going to double, triple and quadruple down on Eripyo and Maina just not being able to communicate and Volume 7 is, enraging, because it is *almost an excellent volume.* And then, once out of the well*, the story starts to get better somehow.

But as I read this volume, my words from 6 years ago come back to haunt me. “The more I read this story, the more I desperately hope it’s meant to be a cutting commentary on the utterly brutal idol industry, and the equally brutal hobby of being an idol group otaku. Otherwise, it fills me with despair. (Yeah, I know, I know, I keep bringing it on myself.) The idea that this manga is getting an anime is already annoying, but it will probably be meant to be a comedy and I will just want the world to burn.” As we know, to make it a comedy, the anime removed much of the worst parts of the manga to leave us feeling as it was actually a comedy. So if you watched the anime and came to manga from that…the next few volumes are gonna be rough, I’m sorry.

Ratings:

Art – 8
Story – There is one, yes
Character – 8
Service – 1
Yuri – 3 I was convince when I read this the first time that there was another couple among the members of Cham Jam, I know now that, yes, there is.

Overall – 7

I’ll end with another quote from that review 6 years ago, ““Their eyes meet, they have a conversation, no plants fall and Eri doesn’t end up injured. They are practically married.”

*Many ages ago my father told me of a story in which a person was stuck in a well, with no way to get out, at which point the next chapter began, “Once out of the well…”. This parable reminds us that there is lazy writing and there is lazy writing.

 





If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan I Would Die, Volume 4

November 26th, 2023

Seven female pop idoss, dressed in slight different iterations of yellow chinese-dress style costumes face us. No one thinks that the life of a pop idol is a free and easy life, not any more. We all know that – even aside from abusive management companies – it’s a hard life. It’s a lot of work that is rewarded by the whims of fans. If the fans don’t show up for the idols, no matter how much they do, it’ll never be enough.

But what does that make the life of a fan? You show up to the shows, you buy the merch, you get a handshake and, maybe, a kind word. Does the idol remember you among the many fans they have? In If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan I Would Die, Volume 4 we see this overtly transactional relationship from many different angles.

Cham Jam’s participation in the Okayama Idol festival is finally announced, but the fans already knew…which takes away a bit of the energy. While the idols toil to be their best selves, we get a glimpse of their motivations. Yuka’s only real desire is to be liked, while Maki really wants Yumeri to surpass her. Maina is happy where she is, Aya is not happy where she is. Sorane looks to Reo who is having a small crisis. Cham Jam will be on the same stage as Maple Doll, a popular group from Hiroshima, which features another member of Reo’s former group. It’s hard for Reo to see Mei’s group and not feel as if she’s lost something.

From the other side, the fans are struggling with just how best to support Cham Jam. Kumasa and Eripyo visit a Maple Doll concert to see the competition where they are spotted by Yuka and Aya. This causes all kinds of miscommunication that they are “two-timing” Maina and Reo. I’m gonna admit that that this section made me rage. People can like more than one thing at once, folks. It is really not at all okay for companies or other fans to make that taboo. Like, really, fandoms, get a grip.

Eripyo invites a coworker over to watch a promotional clip for the Idol Festival, only to accidentally create a rabid fan in another fandom. Woops.  She also becomes incoherent whenever she’s near Maina and it annoys her as much as it does me.

Ratings:

Art – 8
Story – Painful, but poignant at times
Character – 8
Service – 1
Yuri – Argh

Overall – Argh

I know I struggle with the “comedy” aspect of this series. Maybe if you read it, you’ll think it’s hilarious. I hope you do and let me know in the comments!

Thank you very much to the folks at Tokyopop for their excellent work making this convoluted tale of business and love make sense and for the review copy!





If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan I Would Die, Volume 3

November 9th, 2023

Seven girls in red pop idol costumes pose on the cover of If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan, I Would Die, Volume 3 by Auri Hirao.Phew. Now that Christian took us over the hump of Volume 2, in which neither Maina nor Eri act in any way approaching the way normal humans might, We arrive at Volume 3 of If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan I Would Die, where they are marginally less not human. 

The first-ever ranking contest results are in and through an amazingly tortured and unreal set of circumstances, Eri comes too late to make a difference in the rankings. Main is, yet again, disappointed for the wrong reasons, until she learns that Eri bought her CDs anyway and runs after her Number 1 fan, but missing her because of an amazingly tortured and unreal set of circumstances. But the Christmas concert comes and although Reo is still center, the girls make their best efforts at giving their fans the kind of service they want – callouts, special gestures, handshakes – and, for the holiday a fraught gift a three shot! Why an idol group would sow dissension among their otaku by requiring them to pick a second fave is beyond me, but perhaps management forgot that otaku live and die by single-minded, creepily possessive obsession?

Importantly, Eri and Maina make each other very happy by saying something mostly-incoherent, but this time at least positive to one another! Yay! Maybe we past their inability to communicate? Hahahah, no, obviously not. This is a Hirao Auri manga and no one important will ever have a meaningful conversation.

The manga ends with the Cham Jam girls and their fans accidentally being at the local shrine at the same time for New Year’s…and the news that Cham Jam will be participating in this year’s Okayama Idol Fest…and so will with the girls who were in Reo’s old group. shock!

I said we’re “over the hump,” and in one sense we are. There will be less torturing of Eri from Volume 4 onward, but this volume is still firmly rooted in the idea that hurting Eri, and Eri and Maina not managing to talk is super hilarious, and not massively stressful. On the other hand, the members of Cham Jam are actually lovely when they are together. You can really see how much they like one another and really believe in themselves, which is incredibly charming. The shrine scene is a reminder that whoever they are up on stage, idols are people, too.  Cham Jam seems like a group you could really get behind.

Ratings:

Art – 8
Story –  Still frustrating but I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel, even if I can’t see it yet.
Character – 8
Service – Pleasantly, 0
Yuri – 4 Hovering at “I think I feel something for you, but can’t put a finger on it,” to “I can’t look you in the eyes, but don’t know why” with potential

Overall – 8

Tokyopop does a very good job of making this series as fun as possible which, at least for a few more volumes, is not very much. But IF you love idol culture and love insights into both sides of the struggle – what idols and their fans go through – this is probably one of the most realistic manga out there. Idol culture is a niche of it’s own and has it’s own language and rituals. Thanks very much to Tokyopop for today’s review copy and for the excellent work by the entire team for bringing this title over.