Back in February, I reviewed Hitori Koukan Nikki (一人交換日記), the sequel to Nagata Kabi’s breakout hit essay manga, Sabishi-sugi Rezu Fuzoku ni Ikimashita Report (さびしすぎてレズ風俗に行きましたレポ) , which was translated as My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness. Now the sequel is out in English from Seven Seas as My Solo Exchange Diary, and I wanted to sit down and take another look at it.
As I point out in my review of the Japanese edition, this volume revolves around Nagata-sensei’s need for human relationships and independent life as a whole individual and the depression and dysfunction which make it hard for her to have those things. And, as I’ve pointed out repeatedly since I read this volume, becoming famous for having created a brutally personal diary of one’s crushing depression isn’t going to be the thing that helps with that depression. Nagata-sensei is honest about her need for praise, her desire to build a healthy ego and her challenges in doing so. It can make for a frustrating, fascinating, hopeless and hopeful ride in this volume.
Towards the end, she has a chance to finally make a connection with another human, someone who genuinely seems to like her, but she’s blocked by her essential inability to return that affection. This is not a character we are talking about – the is a real person living a real life. So, while reading the Japanese version, I felt hopeful that we’d see her able to reject what keeps her trapped, but after this last week, I’m reminded that we have no “cure” for depression and no matter what we hope, it may never get better. All we can do is hope that the woman behind the name “Kabi Nagata” can find a way out of this. And we wish for that selfishly, as much for ourselves and the next volume of this journey, as we do for her, which is perhaps horrible, but true.
Ratings:
Art – 7 It’s developed into a distinct style
Story – 8
Character – 9
Service – 3
LGBTQ – 7
Overall – 8
While talking with folks from Seven Seas, I commented that as I read this, I kept wishing there was something we could do for her. Short of thanking her for her honesty and courage, there’s little we can do, except root for her from a distance.
Thank to Seven Seas for the review copy and congrats on having another best-seller. ^_^ Now I’d like Takemiya Jin’s and Nishi UKO’s work please.