Hello and welcome to a special Guest Review here at Okazu! I’d like you to welcome Xanthippe, who will be taking a look at Love Me for Who I Am, Volume 1 by Kata Konayama, from Seven Seas! I’m thrilled to have this review and I hope you will be as well.
Before we begin, I want to quickly note that this title has been polarizing and there have been some inappropriate comments made by fans of this series on other reviews. Therefore, I want to let you know that all comments to this post will be moderated. You are very welcome to state your opinion of this series, to comment on the substance of the review. Comments about the reviewer or any criticism of their person will not be allowed. I know Okazu readers understand this, but if you are new here, please take a look at our community standards before commenting. I welcome your thoughts. Xan, the floor is yours!
I’m Xanthippe, and I make comics about trans stuff. You can find my work at https://comicsbyxan.com/ and https://pandorastale.com/
Historically there haven’t been a lot of manga dealing with trans people, but two that I think about frequently are Stop!! Hibari-kun! from 1981, and F. Compo from 1996. Both are slice-of life comedies featuring a bland-as-biscuits male lead thrust into the mysterious world of trans people, and in both stories said male lead holds himself back from pursuing someone he is obviously attracted to, because they’re trans and he doesn’t know how to deal with that. There’s a superficial “will they or won’t they?” hook, but reading them as a trans person, you quickly get the feeling that they probably won’t.
These series show us trans characters from an outsider’s perspective. They’re surprisingly progressive for their time, though both still have plenty of problems. Trans people are used as a spectacle: the shocking twist, a source of comedy and drama. The mangaka appear to be working from a position of relative ignorance on the topic, and so there’s a sense in which these series end up working in spite of themselves. We get likeable, identifiable trans characters seemingly by accident, because you know deep down that catering to trans members of the audience wasn’t the goal here.
Love Me for Who I Am feels like it belongs to the same stable. It’s a modern manga and consequently feels a lot more progressive and respectful in its portrayal of trans people. The cis male lead is actually comfortable with his attraction to his trans co-star, for one thing, and there’s a lot less mining of transness for humor. But the outsider’s perspective is alive and well, and while we’re no longer being used for jokes, there’s something just a little bit fetishy in how the trans characters are presented. Like Hibari and F. Compo before it, I liked it a lot, but there are some caveats.
The main setting of the series is Café Question, a maid café whose gimmick is that the wait staff are all crossdressing boys. Tetsu, our cis male protagonist and the brother of the café’s owner, notices his lonely classmate Mogumo, who is assigned male at birth but wears the girls’ uniform at school. At his invitation, Mogumo comes to work at the café, but a conflict emerges when Mogumo explains that they’re not a crossdressing boy – they can’t be, as they are neither a boy nor a girl.
It’s proposed that the café could easily adapt their gimmick just a little bit to make room for the nonbinary Mogumo, but this provokes the ire of one staff members in particular, Mei, who is very invested in the “crossdressing boy” identity and finds Mogumo and their lack of gender perplexing. In what’s absolutely my favorite section of the book, Mei comes to accept that she’s a trans woman, her previous bluster having been a consequence of the deep denial she was in. While the overall story is centered around Tetsu, Mogumo and the beginnings of a relationship between them, Mei’s story is what stands out in this volume, at least for me. Mogumo gets the most focus, but by the end of the volume they’re still a bit of a cipher and it’s hard to get a handle on their personality.
Rounding out the café’s staff we have Suzu, who originally got into crossdressing to impress his boyfriend; Ten, who just enjoys cosplay, and the café’s owner, Satori, who’s a trans woman. She’s the character I most enjoyed: I can’t tell you how satisfying it is to have the wise mentor and most competent character of the bunch be an openly trans woman.
This is all to say that Love Me for Who I Am works best when it’s an ensemble piece about its various characters figuring themselves out. Almost everyone here is some variety of queer, so it’s striking how little these kids know about queer topics. Whether it’s general confusion about Mogumo being nonbinary (Satori has to explain the concept to the rest of the staff), or Mogumo innocently dropping a homophobic slur, it’s clear that they’re only just learning most of this stuff.
On the one hand, this would seem to indicate that the characters have some growing to do. But this is where that outsider’s perspective becomes a problem again. I don’t know the mangaka’s gender or if they’re trans or not, though they state that they didn’t know nonbinary people existed when they started work on the story (which, for a story about a nonbinary person? Yeah, not ideal). Regardless of their gender, this feels like a story from an outsider’s perspective, and so I can never quite let my guard down. Is Tetsu misgendering his sister out of ignorance, or is this an oversight on the part of the creator? I want to believe it’s the former, and if this was a story by someone I knew to be trans I probably would, but instead I’m constantly bracing myself for something to be handled badly.
Which is a shame, because for the most part the book clears these hurdles well. At one point Mogumo wonders if things would be easier on Tetsu if they were a girl, which leads to some experimentation with their gender presentation. This isn’t quite resolved by the volume’s end, though there are moments here and there that indicate Mogumo really wouldn’t be happy just being a girl. All in all, it’s a fairly tactful exploration of an experimental phase that a lot of trans people experience, but when Mogumo first wondered if they should become a girl for Tetsu’s sake, it set off some alarm bells to be sure.
And then there’s the art, which is well done and all, but there are times when the characters are presented in a way that feels objectifying and, to be honest, porny. The actual content of the book gets no more explicit than a single panel of Mogumo with their shirt off, but… I mean, look at the cover art. Just look at it. The mangaka used to draw femboy porn and it shows. It creates a weird atmosphere because the story is innocent enough, but that art style makes it feel like it could turn into porn at any moment.
It might seem odd for me to dwell so much on the book’s flaws while saying I liked it, but those flaws are frustrating because they drag down a story that’s genuinely nice and sweet with a presentation that sometimes makes you worry that someone might be looking over your shoulder and judging you. I recoiled slightly at the sight of the cover. I cried when Mei tentatively asked her coworkers to refer to her as a girl. I wish I could have one without the other.
Ratings:
Art – 7
Story – 6
Characters – 7
LGBTQ – 9
Service – 7 based almost entirely on art style
Overall – 8
I’m 39 years old – the same age as the Stop!! Hibari-kun! manga. I went through most of my life with very few positive portrayals of trans people to look to, so I’d latch onto anything half-decent. I adored Aoi from You’re Under Arrest, even though she was a minor character at best, and not always treated particularly well when she got her moments in the spotlight. Point is, I’m used to making compromises with my media. I’m used to accepting imperfect handling of trans characters because those perfect stories so rarely exist. Love Me for Who I Am is a book with its heart in the right place, a surprisingly gentle tale of queer kids learning to be themselves, and I’d recommend it, provided you can tolerate the occasionally skeevy art style. I like this book, though I wonder if perhaps I like it more for what it could be than for what it is.
Erica here: I cannot express how excellent a review this is. I’m so very grateful for this, Xan and I hope to have you back again soon!
Circumstances brings two completely opposite girls together, where they find they have some surprising qualities in common, in Ajiichi’s Failed Princesses, Volume 1,
Saeki Sayaka would probably not, if you asked, consider herself nostalgic. Nor would she likely think of herself as capricious, I don’t think she’d go far as to say that she was any more logical than anyone else. I am confident, however, that she would agree that she is a thoughtful young lady, who considers her choices carefully…and considers the consequences of those choices very deeply.
